motherhood: all it's cracked up to be
I often get asked, "How's it going?" in reference to motherhood. My response has been a consistent, "good" but depending on how well you know me, and whose asking, you'll know how I really feel. To those who have known me for awhile, they know I'm in heaven. I've wanted to be a Mom for as long as I can remember so the fact that I get the stay home and care for Anderson is wonderful. Sure some days are better than others, but I have to say it's true what "they" say, it just keeps getting better.
I chuckle inside when someone asks me about staying at home when I get the impression that they must think I'm going crazy. What must I do all day and aren't I missing work? Sure I enjoyed working and the travel and life that came with that, but this is a new kind of job, and one I wouldn't trade for anything.
At almost 6 months Anderson is getting more fun each day. He's also getting a lot more predictable, sleeping better, and my lil Buddy. I can tell now that he likes when we get out of the house after he naps, even if it's a trip to Target to get an Easter wreath that I justified us 'needing' because now with kids it'll be fun to decorate for Easter. Next year we'll be able to take it out and talk more with him about what Easter really means.
My take on certain things has changed over the past few months too which has made things easier. I used to look at the clock and worry about when he ate last and how often he was eating. Now he eats when he's hungry and it's usually more often than not. The past few weeks he's seemed to eat before he sleeps, fuss a bit, want to eat more, then finally fall asleep. He's also not taking a bottle but really? it's ok. This quote has come up a lot and I think it's so true, "The Days are Long but the Years are Short." Sure I may not be able to do certain things this year while he nurses, but it's ok. For awhile there in the beginning I was worried he wouldn't nurse. This is precious time and he'll be grown up before I know it. Until he does, these times are precious and considered as such to me.